My doctor called today with the results of my many tests.
I do believe that my cancer has been a spiritual re-birth and I am just not done yet growing. That’s what my doctor told me today when he called...
Well not those words, what he told me is: “the cancer is not all gone yet.”
In other words: I'm not done growing. It’s hard not to write about all the details, but I believe this blog will be a better place if I don’t. Because I do enough theorizing about my cancer, I don’t need another place or a public to do more. I’ve grown since my diagnosis last year and I do see things in a different perspective. I’m coming to terms that after all the tests in the world—things are often times inconclusive.
Doctors can’t constantly validate me, neither can tests. I can’t continually dissect what they tell me and how they do so. I do have more faith with the more experience I get, but I could get a lot more. I will work on that. God and I will work on that.
When I don’t know every single answer, I need to, more than ever—trust in God.
In the meantime, more treatment and prayer are in order for me.