Friday, October 23, 2009

ramblings of news

So, I am going to try and get my blog up and running again, after all it is on the verge of disrepair…

There’s been many new developments since I last posted. The most exciting is that I was declared in remission! Not to burst my own bubble in anyway, but I still do have some detectable cancer. But it’s a low number that has remained completely stable (hence a meaning of the word remission) and because of my cancer type it should remain inert. So, I am feeling blessed, especially as I was given the ok to try and have another child. I recently read an article about a pregnant woman who was in remission for a different cancer with completely different protocols. She was ok and now onto trying for her second baby. While I was reading her story I thought “what a strong woman, can I be like that?”

Certainly getting your doctor’s approval is necessary as is feeling comfortable with your decision. As trite as this will sound there are just so many unknowns in life. We can only do our best to try and navigate around but most of the time it’s through them. There is a part of me that worries—what if I need more treatments? Can the doctors assure me completely that being pregnant is 100% benign? No, but what is 100% benign anyway? Do know that I am not putting myself in any kind of medically documented harm’s way… I'm taking this scientific ok and building on my faith to conquer the “ifs” and know that it will be ok.

3 comments:

Z said...

I'm so thrilled to a) see a new blog post and b) to hear the amazing and blessed news! So happy for you. I think there are so many unknowns in life...we just need to be thankful for each and every day and go with our guts. If you want another baby and the dr. has given you the okay then I am sending you many wishes for a happy and healthy future pregnancy!!!!

Mindy said...

I am so glad you are back. I am also a papillary thyroid cancer who found you through blogger and was hoping to make contact. Monday, I was also declared in remission after five years of cancer. Same type of feeling, still have "things" to watch...I love babies, I will definately pray about this for you! Blessings to you today!

Liz said...

Beautiful, Marlena.