Saturday, October 31, 2009


family of ghosts made by me--a mom, dad and an owen. here

Halloween parade

falling together

view from falling.

goodbye fall--always too short.

but I'm finding solace in

falling back tonight.

Friday, October 23, 2009

ramblings of news

So, I am going to try and get my blog up and running again, after all it is on the verge of disrepair…

There’s been many new developments since I last posted. The most exciting is that I was declared in remission! Not to burst my own bubble in anyway, but I still do have some detectable cancer. But it’s a low number that has remained completely stable (hence a meaning of the word remission) and because of my cancer type it should remain inert. So, I am feeling blessed, especially as I was given the ok to try and have another child. I recently read an article about a pregnant woman who was in remission for a different cancer with completely different protocols. She was ok and now onto trying for her second baby. While I was reading her story I thought “what a strong woman, can I be like that?”

Certainly getting your doctor’s approval is necessary as is feeling comfortable with your decision. As trite as this will sound there are just so many unknowns in life. We can only do our best to try and navigate around but most of the time it’s through them. There is a part of me that worries—what if I need more treatments? Can the doctors assure me completely that being pregnant is 100% benign? No, but what is 100% benign anyway? Do know that I am not putting myself in any kind of medically documented harm’s way… I'm taking this scientific ok and building on my faith to conquer the “ifs” and know that it will be ok.